We live in such a broken world. Tonight I find myself in this place where my soul is weary and my heart just grieves the circumstances of those around me whom I love. When I made a decision to follow Christ I also made a promise to try to live more like him. Knowing that I will always fall short, but I still made the commitment to give every effort in dong so. Often times what Christ asks of me is the very last thing I want to do. But then there are those times where nothing seems right. Where the Bible doesn't give a direct yes or no and it's left to us and our convictions. I feel that I am truly finding out what dying to myself means. I want to speak my voice, defend myself or others, say it like it is. However I know that God calls me to a higher standard. To choose my words carefully, to put others before myself, to love and love well, no matter circumstances. How great his love is for us! As raw and painful as life can sometimes be I can't help but feel so loved. Because it is in those times when no one can control anything that God reminds me that he is my precious Father. He is the only one who won't ever disappoint me, he is the only one who can take my pain away, and he promises to always be there for me. I can take comfort in knowing that he is always in control and that there is nothing more powerful then him. That he can change anything with the blinking of an eye. As I was on my way home from work tonight there was a song that came on the radio that I took peace in. It's called there will be a day by Jeremy Camp

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

God is good and can be trusted. He is the first one cheering for me in the morning and the last one at night. I know that I did nothing to deserve his power full and unending love for me, but I am abundantly grate full that he chose to give his sons life for me. No matter how hard this life gets nothing can compare to his sacrifice!