WHAT IS ON MY MIND?

Well for starters way to much! This is going to be me rambling on about concerns, frustrations, and sadness I have, so if you do not wish for me to depress you, I suggest you not read on. Also this is all simply me opinion.

The other night Travis and I were having one of those "what's on your mind talks" and I was not at all prepared for what he said but it got me thinking none the less. That day we heard a lot of hipe about the whole h1n1 thing so he said it got him thinking about the end times and the whole mark of the beast thing. Not specifically pertaining to h1n1, that is simply what got the ball rolling in his head. He was talking about how we as humans get freaked out so easily and how every one just gets caught up in panic and does what there told and sometimes making decisions out of fear instead of fact. He was saying how he could totally see how one day some disease would come up and the president would say it was this huge threat and everyone needed to get this vaccination and have some sort of signature showing they got it and if they didn't they would basically not be allowed in society. After that conversation which left me up all night thinking the next day I watched this hour and a half documentary on the whole h1n1 thing, details not really important because I think every family will do what is right for them, but one thing that did stick out was they had said that they were wanting to make it mandatory. That of course just made me think of what Travis said even more. Then I got to thinking about Obama and his health care plan, and how he's striving for a one world government, and one national currency. It's only a matter of time really, the bible says it all right there. Not to say that Obama is the Antichrist I am just realizing that a lot of the decisions he's making and insane things happening like the whole nobel peace prize doesn't help my case. Then after all of that, can't think of how that may some day affect my family. God could come 1,000 years from now but he could also come tomorrow. He never specifically states what we as believers will be here for and when we get to go to our next amazingly glorious life. So what if all this happens in my lifetime. In 1 Corinthians it talks about how it is not wrong to get married but it is better to be single if you are able to overcome temptation becaue this life will be easier. If I only had to worry about myself life would be much easier! But I don't, I have me, my husband, and my children. What if that day comes and I have young children, will we run and hide in the boonies somewhere, will we stay where we are, what if they are older and the rapture takes place but they haven't yet surrendered there life to Christ and are left behind. These are the thoughts that are permeating my brain. I know that Christ loves them way more then I am even capable of. I do trust in him, and know he sees what I don't, and that his plan is way better than any I could come up with. Living in fear and letting this consume me is not only pointless but crippling in my testimony to Christ, but it does remind me that we need to make every moment of this life count. I need to enjoy my family and the simplicity of my life rather then focus on useless things that don't matter because I never know when it could all end. Mostly I am reminded that I have a purpose here on this earth, and I will continue to get on my knees and pray for all of those who I dearly love so much who I know have yet to make the most decision of there lives!